Chapter 2 Madness

Chapter 2 I smiled bitterly. I can give you that Laven Oscar Sullivan, at least a few more, if I don't--

"Wife, don't give me your fake smile, please. I don't like that, I'm sorry if I'm rushing you. huh? I'm just excited, hon, I'm sorry, Aly. My very beautiful wife ." He hugged me tightly and I couldn't stop my tears from flowing and cried immediately and my husband was surprised.

I'm sorry, Laven, I'm so sorry, hon.

"Hush, hon, hush..." he let me stay and seemed to be nervous.

"Why are you crying?" he asked me in a gentle voice. He caressed my cheek and repeatedly touched me with a kiss on the bridge of my nose. On the forehead, on the cheeks and even on my lips.

"Hmm?"

"Nothing..."

I buried my face in my husband's chest and felt him rubbing my back.

"Wife, hon..."

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Laven..." I cried and hugged her tighter.

Jullie Rose, what you told me is what I'm afraid of. You don't know, you don't know how much I tell myself that he will accept me, that my husband will accept me.

He loves me, he loves me so much. He will not leave me and hate me when he finds out about my situation.

I hold on to my husband's love for me. Even though I hid my situation from him, I hope he will accept me.

I still hope that he will never leave me just because I won't have any more children. That I can no longer fulfill our dream.

To build a family.

"Hon, why are you crying?" He cupped my face and forced me to face him but I closed my eyes and full of tears.

I just cry when I see his eyes, that's how much he loves the boy.

"Open your eyes, open your eyes, hon." I shook my head and bit my bottom lip. I'm afraid

"Wife..." He kissed my forehead again.

"Open your eyes, please, I want to see your eyes," he pleaded.

"Aleixha Medley Sullivan," he uttered my name.

I opened my eyes but I was just bent down and he grabbed my chin, he lifted it up to see my whole face. Now this time I met his gaze. Full of questions and doubts. But the love and concern for me is still there.

I can't do it without you, honey. I think I'm going to die.

"Why are you crying?"

"I love you, I love you so much, Laven Oscar Sullivan," I said and brought my face closer to his. I kissed him firmly on the lips and he responded my kisses.

I'm sorry, is that all I can say? Are you really sorry?

We kissed, again and again until we ended up making love on our bed.

We've spent our moment in Paradise Island, we also stayed for two weeks and we did nothing but have fun. Dating, making love inside of our private suite.

I hope...I hope we can be like this forever. You are the kind who are happy that there will be no more problems.

You only think about your pleasure with the one we love, but I know...

The day will come when...he will know about me but he will accept me.

He loves me very much, I know, I feel his love for me. If... if only we had children, maybe we would be happier.

"What are you thinking, hon?" my husband asked me with his sexy and husky voice. Dang it.

"Us," I answered briefly and smiled sweetly.

"Ows? You were thinking about our love making, wife?" he playfully said and he received a slap on the arm from me.

"Aw, hon! That hurts!" he said sullenly and his eyebrows still met. He is really handsome.

"Tse! It's art," I laughed and said and my husband just smiled.

We are going back to our house now. Our short vacation is over and I can say it was worth it.

Because of an island we thought of going on vacation. It's fun there and the place is beautiful. It's relaxing.

"By the way, hon, thanks for this." He prefers my gift. A black watch.

"You're my husband, don't thank me, hon," I said with a wink that made him laugh. Amuses me.

"I love you," he said in a sweet voice.

"I love you, too," I smiled back at him.

"I wish we could just be like this, right? Always happy and without any problems," I just said.

"What? Honey, you were thinking a negative again," he said seriously.

"I hope your love for me will not change, hon." Here I am again, getting emotional again.

My husband stared at me, and he stopped the car on the side of the road just to comfort me because I started crying again.

"Come here, hon," he said softly.

I moved closer to him and he hugged me very tightly. H-Here are my tears again. I really can't help it.

I buried my face in his chest and he stroked my hair down my back.

"I'm really going to think that you're pregnant, hon, you're always like this. I wonder why you're getting emotional lately, hon?" And you can't help but doubt me, Laven.

"Laven... What if... What if, uhh no. Do you really want us to have children?" I asked weakly and he hugged me tighter.

"Every husband wanted it, wife, but I'm not rushing you. I can still wait, just tell me when you're ready, wife."

Here you go again tears, you are falling again.

"L-Laven, we can adopt." I said that without thinking.

"W-What? What are you saying, hon? Adopt? You've got to kidding me! No way, I still prefer the one who came from us, Aly," he said annoyed and broke away from our embrace each other.

He started to turn on the engine again and he continued driving. He clenched his jaw. A sign that he's mad.

"I'm sorry Laven, I love you." Laven didn't answer so I was sad.

After my husband dropped me off at our mansion, he left quickly and didn't even tell me where he was going.

He is really angry with me. Why is that what I said suddenly? I thought he would be happy.

"Laven, where are you?"

I'm worried about my husband, it's getting late at night but he's still coming home.

I walked back and forth while biting my nails. I'm like this if I'm worried about him.

Laven, where have you been? Please, I hope you're okay. Oh God... Where's my husband?

I know it's wrong to say that if we can just adopt. I'm just trying to do that but I made a mistake, because he got mad at me.

I heard a car honking so I stopped walking back and forth even though I still felt dizzy.

Laven! I hope he is!

I quickly got out of our mansion and went to the gate.

"Laven!" I called my husband when I saw him getting out of his car.

I attended to him quickly but I was surprised by what he did when he suddenly took my hand.

"Go away!" he said coldly and my chest ached.

"Laven, it's me." I held his arm but for the second time around, he refused my hand.

"Honey?"

"Go away! I-I don't need you!"

"You're drunk!" I shouted and he stopped.

"W-Who are you?" he asked in a low voice and I approached him again.

"Aleixha, I'm you're wife, honey."

"Oh? My beautiful wife, hi honey," he smiled and hugged me.

"Why did you get drunk? You know, I'm worried!" I said and helped him enter our home.

"Honey, we just had a drink. Oh, my beautiful wife, who's the most beautiful woman in this world? Me! I know who it was! It was Mrs. Aleixha Medley Sullivan! You know her?" He is really drunk so what is my husband saying.

"I know her," I answered and he laughed.

"Hmm? You know she was afraid for having our baby? Every wife, of course was afraid but every husband wanted it."

"Y-You really want us to have children, Laven?"

"Laven? It was me! Who are you again?"

"Ally."

"Ally?" He suddenly stopped and faced me.

He cupped my cheeks and smiled. His eyes are watering.

"You looked exactly like my wife, you're so damn beautiful and I am such a lucky bastard to have you, honey."

"Come on, you need to rest." I made him lie down on our bed while he was still talking and I couldn't really understand what he was saying.

I took a face towel and wet it with water so I could wipe him.

I took off his long sleeve and wiped his cheek down to his neck.

"Ally..."

"I'm here."

"I-I..."

"What is it Laven?"

"I want..."

"What?"

"I want our baby right now, can you give me that?"

I closed my eyes and my tears flowed again. There's nothing new about me, eh, I'm already fragile and will cry.

It just hurts, it hurts to accept that I can't give Laven a child.

"Sleep now, hon," I said and kissed him on the forehead then I lay next to him.

I looked at the table when it suddenly rang.

Cell phone? I sat down again and took my husband's coat.

He had a text message, I wasn't about to open it but something prompted me to open it and read the text message.

There was no password or something to lock his phone so I opened it right away.

I was shocked when I saw the name of the person who texted Laven. It felt like something was pinching my heart and I was suddenly nervous.

"W-What is this? N-Did they meet? B-But how come?" I was about to read the message when my phone rang.

Julie is calling...

Two rings before I accept the calls.

"Yes, Julie?"

"Are you okay, Aly? Why is your voice like that?" he immediately asked me from the other line.

"N-Nothing, I'm fine. You got called? Do you need something, Jullie?"

"No, did you say that?"

I know what he means but I don't want to talk about it when my husband is here. Laven might even hear us.

"Julie please, let's not talk about that."

"You guys had a fight, didn't you? Are you really okay? Then Aly...I saw your h-husband."

"W-What do you mean? You saw, what?"

"Or maybe I just turned my eyes, but I actually saw your husband at the bar."

"That was true, because my husband came home drunk, Jullie."

"And it wasn't just her, I saw Aly."

"H-Huh? What..."

"I saw your husband with someone else. It was Alica."

"You look back, Jullie, b-why are they together? Then if this is true, maybe it was just a coincidence that they met at the bar?"

I was suddenly nervous, he could never do that. I know Alica, she is kind and modest but.... I don't want, I don't want to think about anything. I don't want my husband to doubt.

Maybe Jullie just rolled her eyes but her text?

"Hello, Aly? Are you still there? Aly?"

"I'll hang this up, Jullie, let's talk again tomorrow. Then what you said is very impossible," I said and hung up the phone.

No...no...don't think of that Aly, don't.

I looked again at the message from Alica.

Message from: Alica

"Thanks for the time, I enjoyed it, Laven."

No... this is wrong, wrong. I'll just talk to my cousin tomorrow.

I just lay down again and hugged my husband.

To Be Continued...