Chapter 2

Not that I was ashamed of my mother's profession, but as I know he was the son of a millionaire and I believe he would never look at me

Mariana – What are you waiting for to tell that you've loved this boy for over 7 years?

Maria Cecília – I don’t know friend, I believe I will never say anything

Mariana – I don't understand why, but if you want it that way

Maria Cecília – Well, you know that I am a simple person and he is the son of rich people

Mariana - We don't have that much contact with him, but from the little I see they say, he's just a chicken friend but a handsome man like that, if he wasn't a chicken at least a chick he would be - He said laughing

Maria Cecília – Maybe I should say yes, I already have a no, if a yes comes it will be a surprise

I just needed to know how I was going to tell if it was going to be through a letter or if I was going to speak face to face and I decided to be more cautious and put all my feelings on paper, taking advantage of the break time

"Something about you moves me and I don't know what it is, I don't know what it is about you that holds me back so much for so many years, but it's something that only you have and that's what sets you apart from other people. I've never been able to see that in anyone It's something strong, intense, something that takes me on a path destined for you and only you, a feeling that sometimes frightens me, but it ends quickly as soon as you arrive and open that beautiful smile, when you're sad I have the power to take away my own happiness just to see one more smile on your face even if we don't have that much intimacy, I don't say that just because I love you but also because a smile from you makes my day change completely, from my dreams, you never leave and always with your smile, with your eyes that are such a beautiful brown making me feel happy, making me feel loved even without you knowing it, everything that comes from you makes me feel better and fate brought you into my life, in such an unexpected way, I didn't imagine it would become so important but it did and made my heart beat faster, I'm completely in love with you, I can't deny it and even if I did you would know it would be the biggest lie in the world. My life wouldn't be the same without you, I fall more in love with you every day and you know what? I want to have a life by your side, planning it, but now not alone, not thinking only of myself; but in both of us and I want to be happy, my happiness is in you, I love you in secret for 8 years! Signed: Maria Cecília"

Mariana thought it was very cheesy, but I wouldn't have the courage to come and say everything I've felt for so many years so it was the best way, because we spoke very few times and he would certainly be surprised

Mariana – And when will you deliver this friendly letter? Go now, won't you? - He said biting his fingernails.

Maria Cecília – No my friend, it's better when you leave! I'll call and give it to him and finally he'll know how much I love him

The school bell rang and we headed towards the classroom, but there was a strange buzz, I hadn't seen Bernardo that day yet because he was writing the letter

Mariana – What is going on there? – Mariana asked a small group that was huddled together

– Bernardo Marrontinne had a bad fight with the 3rd grade boy and was suspended, but it seems that his parents took him out of school because he had no reason to be suspended

Maria Cecília – WHAT? I NEED TO RUN - I said running towards the exit gate

It's not possible, now that I've taken the courage to declare myself and open my heart, the parents take him out of the school like this, I ran across the school corridor until I reached the main gate, but when I arrived, the doorman wouldn't let me out

Yeah, did I mention that if I buy a dwarf, it grows? Unlucky as I am!

Porter - Where do you think you're going young lady?

Maria Cecília – I need to give this to Bernardo! Let me out please - I begged

But still the doorman wouldn't let me out, there was only Bernardo outside the car and as I saw that there was an open gap in his backpack, I threw the letter with the intention of falling into the backpack, but the letter fell into the manhole close to where Bernardo was and of course he didn't see

I could see the letter falling through the bars, I was completely helpless and I could hear the song "oh no, oh no, oh no, no no"

It was by a thread, now that Bernardo will never know that I've loved him for so many years

Mariana – Maria Cecilia! – Came running – Were you able to deliver the letter to him?

Maria Cecília – Oh, my friend! He still hadn't got into the car, just his parents and as his backpack was open because of skateboarding I still wanted him to get into the backpack

Mariana – And did you enter?

Maria Cecília – It was by a thread, but she fell down the drain

Mariana – What bad luck my friend! - He said hugging me.

I went home desolate and thinking that maybe I'll never see the boy I've loved for more than years

The next day and I didn't feel like getting out of bed to go to school at all, since my biggest reason was not going to school anymore and there was very little left to finish the year, I woke up from my thoughts when I heard a knock on the door Fernando – Maria Cecília, wake up! Her mother told me to ask her to go to school Maria Cecília – Not today daddy! I am not well Fernando – What do you have? You don't look like you're sick! - He said placing his hand on my forehead. Maria Cecília – You don't look like a drunk and addicted to gambling, but you are and that's not why I'm saying anything to you - I said while holding the pillow tighter Fernando – Maria Cecília, I demand respect from you! You're not talking to your high school friends and come on, go shower soon and get ready for school Maria Cecília – "I demand respect from you!" those who see it even think they have all this ball to talk that way - I mocked going towards the bathroom