Chapter 3 The Apology

****Lily's POV****

"Sure." I said very pointedly. "Come in." He was wearing a black coat and black jeans. His hair was a little shaggy but I’m guessing that was because he was in wolf form before coming here. "Thanks." he said walking through the door, making his way over to the kitchen "Can I get you anything? Water? A snack?" I asked while following him. "No thanks, I'm fine. I won't be here long." He was looking around inspecting my home as he walked and it made me slightly uncomfortable. He sat down at the head of the dining table so I sat at the other end. "Lily, I've been wanting to talk to you for weeks." He said with his hands clasped on the tabletop. "About what?" I asked, barely hiding my emotions. "Well, about everything." He said and continued with "I know this hasn't been easy for you, it wasn't easy for me either. But I wanted you to know that I really do want us to be on good terms. I don't want there to be any animosity between us. You and I both know that we can't control these things." I just sat there and thought for a second. I didn't have a chance to respond before he started again saying "You don't have to come to the ceremony if you don't want to. But just know that I want you there. You've been such a big part of my life for forever and it would mean a lot to me if you were there." I couldn't find anything to say. Finally the words came out of my mouth before I had a chance to even think about them. "You came to talk to me about your ceremony? And give that apology?" I said without making eye contact. Looking back at him I said "I actually bought this dress today for your Alpha Ceremony. Amelia talked me into going." He looked down at the table, cleared his throat and said "Yeah I noticed the dress." I gasped. I had forgotten that I was still wearing it. "Oh shit! Let me go change!" I almost yelled and ran towards my room. I could hear him laughing from down the hallway. I frantically tore the dress off and started searching for something to wear. I threw on some black leggings and a gray v-neck. I ran back towards the front, slowing my pace as I got closer to the kitchen. "Okay, I'm back." I said sitting down slightly out of breath. "What were we talking about?" I asked trying to regain my compsure after sprinting. "My ceremony, Lily. You said you were coming?" he said, looking me over again. "Yeah, I guess I am." We sat in silence for a moment before he opened his mouth to speak but then changed his mind. "How's Kayla doing?" I asked, breaking the silence. “She’s doing great. Her Luna ceremony will be in a few months, after mine.” I knew she was going to be Luna but hearing him talk about her Luna ceremony hurt. I guess he could see it in my face because he followed that up with “I hope you don’t hate me, it’d be different if I could make it any different.” I took a deep breath in and said, “I don’t hate you, I just hate the situation. Here I was, thinking we were going to be mates after being together for years and then all of a sudden you don’t love me any more and there’s someone else.” This time I could see the hurt in his face. I continued with “I’m happy for you, happy that you’re happy. But that doesn’t change the fact that I’m hurt.” He sighed and leaned back in the chair. “I know it doesn’t. Which is why I wanted to talk to you before the ceremony.” “Well you aren’t doing a whole lot of it Matt. “ I huffed. “I just don’t know what to say is all.” he replied. “Look, I’m sorry for how things happened, how things turned out, and how it all was on you.” “It’s okay. Things like this just happen I guess.” I said, sighing. Suddenly his phone rang. He pulled it out and looked at it then looked at me. “I’m sorry, I have to take this. I’ll see you around?” he asked, pausing at the front door before walking out then shut the door behind him. I just sat there. I couldn’t believe what had just happened. I texted Amelia and said “You’ll never believe what just happened. Matt was here.” I put my phone down then got up to make a salad from the fridge. I started cutting up the lettuce and chicken when I heard my front door open. ”Girl! You’ve got to tell me everything!” she said out of breath and with her shirt half on. “Did you just run here from your house?!” I asked, laughing. “Yes! As soon as you texted me I shifted to come here faster.” she replied and began fixing her shirt. I finished preparing my salad and sat at the table, motioning for Amelia to sit down too. As I was telling her the story, her face showed every emotion she thought. She was a very animated person and this conversation really brought her facial expressions to life. “And to make it all even better, I was wearing this.” And went to my room to grab the red dress. I came back to the kitchen and showed her the dress. “You’ve got to be joking! That’s hilarious!” she exclaimed while laughing. “So…. what are you going to do?” Amelia asked me, changing the tone of the conversation. “I guess I’m going to go. There’s nothing else to do at this point. I’ve got to move on with my life. I’m only 17, I’ll figure it out at some point.” Amelia agreed with me and told me that she had to go finish what she was doing before I texted her. As we exchanged goodbyes, she gave me one of the biggest hugs I’ve gotten from her in a long time. After she left, I decided that it was time for a nap and went to bed.