Chapter 2 The life of a single mom

Chapter 1 Shadow’s pov

I got home from work and started to cook super for the kids. The babysitter left so I popped in a movie. Hopefully that would keep them busy until I was done cooking. All I really wanted to do was go to bed. I was so exhausted. Sometimes being a single mother was just plain hard.

I hurried to make them food so we could try to have an early night. I really didn’t like this new babysitter. She gave the kids long naps during the day making it, so I had a hard time to get them to bed at night.

At a year old and three years old they were a handful. It made me angry that my ex did nothing for them. He’s off with his mistress starting a new family. I guess she’s everything I’m not. I looked down at my frumpy clothes. I dressed like a very old woman.

I still hadn’t lost the baby weight yet, so I am a big girl. I guess I can’t blame my husband for leaving me. He was a gorgeous man and deserved to be with a beautiful woman. I was never a beautiful woman. I always wondered what he saw in me.

I mean if he never loved me than why did he marry me, and have children with me? These are the questions I ask myself every day. I fed the kids and myself then cleaned up. I needed to get them to sleep so I could shower.

I put my son in his crib and gave him kisses. I put my daughter in her “big” girl bed. I was happy when they went to bed without a fuss. I loved me kids so much. I was just exhausted. I wish I didn’t have to work so much so I could be home with them more. Sadly, I had no money. My husband took everything when he left. I didn’t even have money to get a lawyer to fight him. I didn’t want anything from him. All I wanted was for my kids to be happy.

He should be a father to them. I don’t care if he hurts me, but if he hurts them, I will make him pay. I am tired of seeing my kids hurt. They deserve better. They were innocent. I get that I was a terrible wife, but they shouldn’t be hurt because of me.

He didn’t need to be with me to be a father. Hearing my kids ask for daddy breaks my heart. I would do anything for my kids. I just hope one day they realize the reason I work so hard is for them.