Chapter 2 ONE DAY FROM TOMORROW

Standing there, she was relieved to see that it was Vagner who was returning with the small group of men who had left early. Carolina was part of that group because of Vagner who rescued her from death and loneliness, at the beginning of the attacks the rich received differential treatment and she paid for their security, but when the banks and large financial institutions were blown up the rich began to being poor and without reference to payment the protection ended, so one day lost and afraid grabbing her bags sitting and waiting for the end in the middle of those causes was when she met Vagner, since the beginning of the war he set up places of refuge and always went out to looking for food and people who wanted to receive Christ as their savior, he went out to preach the gospel, the gospel being something hated by the new society that emerged, he also rescued people who like Carolina had no one and within that context while Vagner ran away from a group of evolutionists who wanted to kill him and whoever was with him was, when he saw Carolina in tears, he didn't say anything, he arrived like a prince and took her by the hand and helped with the bags and pulled her forcing her to run with him from those pursuers. She didn't see where he came from, but Vagner later said that God told him to go that way to rescue her, that he had a purpose on the most difficult path, always calling her God's purpose. Carolina did not quite understand how Vagner managed to listen to the voice of God, but she observed that people believed that he had this direct and intimate contact with God, and he was not the only one in that place who claimed to hear the voice of God. Many were Carolina's memories of this type of statement when things were still normal, she saw on television the scandals involving churches and people who took advantage of people's faith to take what they earned with so much effort, but at the moment it was so different, because none of those people had anything to lose, many like her had only their clothes and nothing else, not even the house they were in had an owner, no one had anything but their living body, so sometimes she came to believe that somehow some of them spoke to God, the vast majority being so different from the rest of the people, in that environment most wanted something in common, something that Carolina wasn't sure if it existed or if it was just a tale they were based on, because they believed and wished, more than their own will to go to heaven, for her to believe in something like that was difficult, but she did not question it and many times she even wanted to think as they thought, believing that if she could, she would become a less selfish person and lonely, but it was difficult, all that even being good, it seemed like a fable.

Carolina thought that Vagner was a handsome and different man, being a man of one and eighty height, brown hair and black skin, his beauty was attractive, but she didn't think that the two had anything to link them sentimentally, nor did she think that he he was her type and she his. Vagner was centered on God, everything he said, did and lived was for God, unlike her who thought only of herself, not understanding that thought that existed, sometimes thinking that faith was a comforting illusion, because believing is a being that he was neither seen nor touched, but that spoke, manifested, felt and that everything was for him, it seemed even more crazy, she saw the bible they believed in, she knew it had been written by men, but believing that humanity was constituted from Adam and Eve and that same humanity would only be saved through Jesus Christ who had been killed many centuries ago was too much for her, thinking that those people were alienated, but she saw no harm in the face of the new life that everyone was forced to live, because there was no other option. At that moment in life when groups of people formed to defend their existence, being faced with the ideology that they should love their neighbor as themselves was safer, because the police and the laws, rules and punishment that generated control no longer existed. and shame about human beings, so walking alone was asking to be killed or enslaved in the worst possible ways, that group asked nothing of her and she didn't expect anything from them, staying there and helping with some things, but always isolated, always listening the meetings that were held at night to share their faith and striving not to disrespect or offend anyone. Carolina was with them long enough to realize that not everyone professed the faith the way they said, identifying some people who were bad and rough and even though she avoided them, there was always one or another that provoked her, she knew that the feeling that moved those women against her, it was the envy of a life that no longer existed, that had been destroyed along with the city's banks leaving her poor, she knew that the reason for her pain was the cause of being hated by those people, but a something had not gone away with the upheaval of life, which was her beauty, at least when looking in the mirror she could see herself and she saved with her life the few beauty products she had left and against that those women had nothing to do , for many years Carolina took care of her appearance, becoming a beautiful and attractive woman and she could not hide it, even though she did not wear short clothes and was not a vulgar woman, she knew that her curves caused envy wherever she went. Also, whenever Vagner found a cosmetic, he gave it away, which was another reason for being chased by those women, but Carolina didn't care about them or anyone else who was there. The difficulties of the place did not take away the security she felt for being there, their faith did not diminish the need in life to be part of a group, so she followed the way that life taught her to do, ignoring the people who came against her and striving to care for and benefit itself.

Vagner always tried to insert her into the things they did, but for Carolina it was difficult, yet he never gave up and always made her smile. She knew that if she went before, he wouldn't have a chance to even get to her side, but in that reality that beautiful smile he had sharpened her feelings; as well as the happy eyes and the attractive lips, but even in that reality they didn't make a couple. Vagner was more than a leader, a peacemaker, he took care of those people, being like a father, a direct channel between God and them, not even having time for himself, but being very happy and complete with this lifestyle he had adopted. When Carolina imagined the two together, she always thought that if one day her thoughts became real, she would have to be the mother of all those people and that was not what she wanted. Killing in her mind any chance of being with him, even wishing that he found a woman who followed his lifestyle, but realizing that this was her concern and that of some women who insinuated themselves to him, with the intention of getting him. She believed that if he got married, she wouldn't create expectations of being with him and that way she would stay more time kept inside herself and safe.