Chapter 1 The Perfect Wife

Shyne Maine had not designed a dress in three years, and tonight she found out why her husband liked it that way. It was 11:40 p.m. in the white house on Ashbourne Heights, and she was folding his shirts in thirds. Collar down, sleeves tucked, the placket flat as a page. Marcus liked them that way. In three years she had never once asked what happened if she folded them in halves. She already knew. Nothing happened. That was the worst of it. He would simply look at the shirt, then at her, and wait, and she would refold it, and by the time she had finished she would have apologized without being asked. Something buzzed inside his gym bag. It was not his phone. His phone sat on the kitchen charger, face down, where it always sat. The sound came from the bag by the closet door, from the lid pocket of a protein shaker, muffled and insistent, like a small animal trapped in a wall. Shyne stood very still. Then she crossed the room, unzipped the pocket, and took out a second phone. It was black and cheap, the kind sold at gas stations. The screen lit up with one message, and the words on it did not need to be read twice, so she read them four times. Thursday. Room 1409. Don't make me wait like last time. -V She had expected to feel something huge. She had imagined this moment, in a way, for over a year, on nights when his key came in the lock at one a.m. and the cedar of his cologne came in with a second scent underneath it, floral, expensive, never hers. She had imagined screaming. Breaking something. Even weeping on the bathroom floor, which at least would have been a way of mourning. What she felt was nothing at all. A flat, white quiet, like snow on a road. This is the part where I'm supposed to be hurt, she thought. Why am I just counting the numbers? Thirteen hundred and ninety days since the wedding. Four hundred and twelve dinners kept warm in the oven. She did not know why she'd counted, only that it was easier than feeling. Her hands had begun to shake. She watched them with distant interest, the way she might watch a model's hem come loose on a runway. A problem to be solved. She set the phone back exactly as she had found it, zipper half open, shaker tilted a few degrees to the left, because Marcus noticed everything. Then she went back to the shirt, and finished folding it in thirds.

Three years ago, Shyne had been the woman the city dressed for. Her label, SHYNE, had shown in four countries. Her coats were on the backs of ministers' wives and runway editors and girls who saved for months to own one stitched seam of her work. Her face had been forty feet tall on a billboard above Wenthworth Plaza, her hair wild and her mouth open, laughing at something off camera. Then she had met Marcus Maine at a charity auction, and he had been so attentive. That was what she remembered now, with a clarity that felt like a bruise. He had been attentive in the way a spotlight is attentive. He remembered her coffee order. He asked about her mother's health. He sent flowers to the studio, then the cutting room, then to her apartment, until her assistant Corinne said, only half teasing, "Shyne, he knows where you sleep." It had felt like being seen. For a girl who had spent a decade sewing herself into the corners of rooms so that other people looked magnificent, to be seen was a kind of hunger being fed. The first small thing happened at their engagement dinner. Marcus had put a gentle hand over hers and said to the table, "Shyne works too hard. I'm going to look after her." Everyone had smiled. It had sounded like love. The second small thing was three weeks after the wedding. "A wife who's at the office at midnight isn't a wife," he told a roomful of friends, laughing, "she's a hobby I share with a spreadsheet." The room had laughed. Shyne had laughed too, a half second late. She handed day-to-day control of SHYNE to Corinne "for one year." The year became three. After that, the small things came in so softly that she could not later point to the day it began. A joint account that became his account "to spare her the stress." A credit card replaced by a household allowance she had to request. A phone she was asked to leave unlocked "in case of emergencies." Friends who were "a bit much" and then not invited. Dinners when her opinion was met with a tender, patient smile and the words, "That's not what you told me, Shyne. Think." That one frightened her most. She had learned to doubt the evidence of her own memory, because he was always so calm. In the magazines, he was the Family Man of Halvorsen Capital, the investment banker who dismantled companies on Monday and sent his wife roses on Tuesday. In boardrooms they called him the Surgeon, because he cut deep and never once looked sorry. In this house, he looked at her like a line item. And just then, the garage downstairs began to rise announcing his arrival.