Chapter 2 heartbreak and disappointments

Chapter 2

KAIZEN's POV

Never get your expectations too high. Because sometimes it will lead to heartbreak and disappointments

My world almost collapsed when I saw that Cloud had the appearance of a man. I don't know who's the guy is, but I can see that they are happy with each other. I was about to approach Cloud earlier to confess for my feelings but before I reached him this guy suddenly showed up and gave him a hug that he happily responded to.

It was like I lost myself in those seconds. He promised to me! He fcking did! He didn't even wait for me? How could he? that's why he doesn't communicate anymore.

He was the one that I loved for those whole 3 years and I never gave my attention and interest to anyone.

What a man of his words. He and his brother are just the same, as*holes!

I immediately turned and left. The after-party has started, so I immediately went to the bar-counter. I requested a wine and the bartender gave me a bottle of it.

Virgo is gone, she went home early because she said she still had work to do. Knight is inside a VIP room, making out of whoever he picks for tonight. Thunder? Oh fuck him! his brother inherited from him!

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My heart felt heavy. I feel sadness, pain and frustration. I thought he only wanted me? He promised to wait for me but why? why he was kissing another guy and looked at him like he's the most precious thing in the world?

What a j*rk! I thought he was different from his brother but in my perception right now he's the worst.

I consumed a bottle of wine which is beyond my limitation. I don't care anymore. I just want to feel numb. I just want to forget. I want to escape from this kind of pain.

I looked around, dim lights with the wild beat of music. People's been dancing and gr*nding their bodies to their content. Some are on the corner out without inhibitions.

I laughed, should I dance too? and gr*nd my body like they did? making out with some stranger? Can I forget that?

My eyes darted at the man who had been staring at me. His hazel eyes are piercing through my systems. His jaw was clenching. He wears the same suit earlier, it looks perfect to his body but not to the tattoo that covered half of his neck.

I didn't know how I came to him with my drunken state. I scanned his face, I felt like a fool looking up at his height. He's undeniably handsome, every detail of his face was made perfectly.

I don't know how many minutes we stared at each other. He didn't say a word, he just kept on staring at me.

I laughed.

My heart is broken and this man in front of me is the best choice to distract myself from the pain I felt. I guess he knows how to make me forget just for tonight. He's an expert btw, it's not a bad idea.

Without further ado, I grabbed his neck and brought his lips to mine. He stilled and didn't move. I bit his lower lip to give myself an opening and slid my tongue inside his mouth to tease him. He still didn't move so I grabbed his thing down there and I felt him go rigid and sighed. He pulled away from my kiss and looked at me with hunger.

"What do you think you're doing?" he asked strongly and angrily. I chuckled and it turns to laugh. "Wait, are you crying?" I felt his thumb wiping the liquid from my eyes. I shook my head. Tf with me? I cried? I laughed again. "Are you drunk dummy?"

I shook my head. "No.. nonono, just tipsy." I smiled at him and reached his nape to kiss him again. I pouted when he didn't respond. WTF? I know he likes it too. "Why are you not kissing me back? Kiss me too!" I'm like a child complaining.

"Dmn man! Don't start a fire will yah? I'll take you home." he whispered near my ear that sent a tingling sensation in my stomach. I mo*ned and in no time I squeezed his.

He gro*ned and owned my lips. He devoured it hungrily like he was gonna swallow me whole. The heat inside me rose. I like this feeling, I want some of this. I follow how his tongue moves. Blazing a burning fire between the two of us.

His kisses became slow and gentle as he lifted me up with both my legs on his waist, my arms on his nape and my head on his shoulder. He started walking and whispered..

"You'll regret asking for it dummy."

The heat of my body rose up when I felt his lips on my throat, fucking and gently biting it. I was below him, arching my back for more. I didn't know I'd like to be touched by this man. I didn't expect it will feel good to be this close to him, to feel him worshiping my body, to get a glance of his l*stful eyes that sent to me every time I make a noise.

Our clothes are long gone.

I bite my lips when he touches my n*pples and plays with it, his eyes are still on me watching every move I make.

"P-Please.. huhh..hmm" those words came out my mouth even though I didn't know what I was asking for.

"Please what?" he smirked and l*cked my other n*pple, it earned dîrty noises from me. "Hmm?" I felt his hand travel from my stomach to my c*ck. I wasn't aware that it was that hard. He j*cked me off until I released my first c*m. I felt at bliss and I kept wanting for more.

"T-Thun..der, I want more. Give me more of it." I saw him smirk and winked at me.

He slid down on me and I was surprised when he unconditionally put my ar* in his mouth while making eye contact with me. It's really rude everywhere!

"D-Dmn ohhh" I muttered, unable to close my eyes because I wanted to see how he could do that without hating it, he seemed to really like her. He's a manwh*re, what do I expect?

"You're drunk, it's an opportunity to have a taste of it. Sorry but I'm not sorry for taking advantage of your condition." he said before putting that in his mouth again.

My body warmed at the sight, he closed his eyes and I can see how he enjoyed what he was doing. His hands are squeezing me up and down, following the movement of his mouth and tongue.

"F-Fasterr, hooh uhh" I demanded which he automatically did.

"You didn't know how badly I wished for this dummy." I couldn't really hear what he said because my ar* was still in his mouth. When I felt that I'm near. I moved my hips and pl*nged myself to his mouth.

I was about to pull out when he gripped my legs not to. I released a second bisis from his mouth and he swallowed it with a smirk. This person must be crazy.

He climbed on top of me and kissed my forehead, then my nose and finally my lips. I kissed him back but deeper, he was the first to avoid. I looked at him with questioning eyes.

"What's wrong?" I will ask.

"That's all I can do. It was beyond enough for me." he whispered before leaving me and took the blanket and covered me.

I got up from lying down and sat up."What are you talking about? let's do it." I'm confused by him.

"No, I was already taking advantage of you. You're drunk Kai." he insists.

"I was drunk a while ago T! I'm not drunk!" I insist too.

"You're just hurting so you want us to do that. I can't do it anymore, you'll only regret it when it's okay." he said.

"You're a manwh*re you use whoever you want. You fck whoever comes to your bed. I'm here oh, do whatever you want with me. Let me use you this time, even just now." I saw his jaw tighten and the expression in his eyes changed. He was hurt? but what I say is true.

It stood without looking at me. My eyes widened when I saw his ar* standing and stiff. It was doubled the size of my 4.5 inches. But his attention doesn't seem to be there.

He has put on clothes and pants but his er*tion is still rising. I don't know if he is aware of that.

"Y-Your d-d*ck.." I pointed at his weapon.

"Don't worry about it, I won't use anyone just to ease this. I have my hands." he said still not looking at me. "You should sleep, I'll be going."

He left without looking back, did I say something wrong? he looks like an abandoned puppy when he leaves.

KAIZEN'S POV

I don't know how I ended up at Thunder's house. I just woke up to be in his room and dressed in his clothes up to my knees.

I remembered everything from last night. From the kissing scene of Cloud and his boy, the sadness and disappointment I felt. I was hurt so I wanted to forget, I got drunk and then.. I-I almost did it with Thunder.

I rubbed my forehead remembering what I said to him. Fck alcohol, I swear that I would never taste you again. Even though I'm still mad at Thunder for unknown reasons, I shouldn't have said that.

I got up and left the room, the things are greatly organized as if the owner is a woman. Thunder is Thunder, he loves organizing and cleaning aside from being a bad boy.

I went down to the first floor and saw him squatting on the couch. His one hand still holding a bottle of rum. His hair is a mess, and if you look at his condition now, he looks like he's been abandoned by his wife.

I approached him and winced. It smells like alcohol. I patted his arm but he didn't seem to feel anything at all.

"Thunder.." I tapped him again while calling his name which he immediately woke up.

"D-dummy?" he said in a daze. He beamed and it took me a lot not to smile back. What's with this man? He gives me strange feelings that are new to me. Does he make me angry?

"Get up, it's already 9:34. Don't you have work today huh?" he just smiled and closed his eyes again.

At the mention of 'work' I immediately remembered grandpa. Maybe that worried me, I haven't been able to say goodbye for a long time.

"I took a day off." Thunder whispered with his eyes closed.

I looked at her and accidentally stared at her lips. I swallowed, he's such a good kisser. I shook my head and dismissed those memories from my mind.

"Get up, you have to take me to us and help me explain to grandpa." I patted him again and only then did he get up.

"Okay, I'll take a shower first. Feel free to grab anything in the fridge." he said and left with the bottle of rum.

The whole drive was just quiet Thunder that I changed. He often says something just to annoy me. He always teased me with whatever his mind dragged him to. But now he just drives seriously and doesn't even look at me.

I felt awkward. I'm not used to it. It's better that he makes me angry than like I don't exist.

We just arrived at grandpa's mansion without anyone speaking to the two of us.

When I got out of his car, I saw gramps heading in our direction. He has a very big smile plastered on his lips as if he found out something amazing.

"Good morning gramps." I greeted. He just smiled at me and turned his attention to Thunder who hadn't gotten out of his car yet.

"T, come inside I cooked your favorites. I know you two didn't have your breakfast yet. I called you at 8:30 but no one answered, I was hoping that you were very tired and still sleeping." my grandpa has this sly grin on his lips that I want to know what it's for.

Thunder immediately came out and smiled at grandpa. They went inside hand in hand and I was left confused by what my grandfather had done. What's with them?

Breakfast ended without Thunder and I still having a hard time. Grandpa noticed that so he signaled to me what happened. I just shrugged my shoulders at him making him shake his head.

"You took a day-off T, wanna grab a drink? I'm free this day I'll join you." grandpa offered here. Thunder just smiled and shook his head.

"I have something to do today, grandpa, maybe next time. Anyway, thank you for the meal." Thunder politely declined.

"Oh, you're always welcome. I will appreciate it if you come often for breakfast. Totally you and Kai will work together, just come in together. You'll even save on fuel." grandpa and his sly grin. What's up?

Thunder chuckled as if he was getting what gramps wanted to convey. "I'd love to."

"I'll look forward to it. Oh hey, and you have something else to do. Kaizen, take T outside." Grandpa said with a smile.

I just followed and didn't dig into their secret. Thunder was still quite beside me. I have this urge to talk to him first but I'm nervous.

When he got into his car, I couldn't stop talking. "Uh-Uhm, are you g-angry with me Thunder?" I have a few questions.

I saw him stop and take a deep breath as if letting the burden come out. He faced me and shook his head. "No, no I'm not mad at you." was the only thing he said.

"Then why do you become so quite in a sudden? You've been around for a while. Just say it. I know you're angry about what I did last night." I blurted.

"No. It's not that." he still refused.

"Then what?! Tell me so I can make up for it. I'm not comfortable right now, I felt so awkward. I don't want this Thunder. It's better to be angry with you everyday just not this that seems too big of my fault to you for you to treat me as nothing." I snort at him.

I saw his eyes widened."T-that was the longest sentence you've ever said without cússîng me." he smiled looking overwhelmed.

I was also surprised by what was being said. I shouldn't care about our situation anymore. I hated him to the bone, but now why I just cared for his feelings?

"What now? Are you just grinning? What an idiot."

He chuckled. "I just hated myself for wanting to be used by you so bad. I want to be used by you Zen. Whatever you want me for, pls equip me. Wether it is to make you forget my brother, I am willing to be used . But I want you to be conscious of it."

"Huh?" I felt like I was confused because I was confused by what he was saying.

To Be Continued....