Chapter 1

1 The contractions were hitting me so hard, I thought I was gonna pass out right there in the delivery room.

Meanwhile, out in the waiting room, my husband, Greg, was probably still drowning his sorrows over his dead "soulmate," Tiffany.

Tiffany had been a ghost in my and Greg's life for like, a decade.

Whenever her name came up, Greg would act like it was some kind of joke.

"Can you believe she was hitting on me even though she knew I was with you? Like I'd ever go for her."

Then, two years ago, Tiffany decided to go rock climbing "for love" and took a fatal tumble.

That's when I realized I was the joke.

Greg held her body and sobbed like his heart was ripped out, shoving me away when I tried to comfort him.

"This is all your fault! If you hadn't taken Tiffany's place, she'd still be alive!"

After that, he was a mess. Drinking himself into oblivion every night. The only time we'd even been intimate in two years was when he thought I was her.

When I told him I was pregnant, all he said was:

"Well, guess you're having it. If it's a girl, we're naming her Tiffany."

And then I died on the operating table, thanks to a complicated labor.

I woke up again, back before Tiffany's fatal climb.

This time, I was gonna let those lovebirds fly!

...

[Hey Greg, everyone says Mount Serenity is the "mountain of love." If I make it to the top, can you maybe give me a little piece of your heart that's supposed to be for Amanda?]

Greg shoved his phone in my face. Tiffany's text was right there on the screen.

"See, Amanda? She has no shame!"

Greg looked disgusted, trying way too hard to distance himself.

If this was the old me, I would have just rolled my eyes. Sometimes, I would even tell him he was being too harsh.

Before Tiffany's accident, I never felt like she was a threat.

Greg always acted like he couldn't stand her.

But after she died, his love for her popped up faster than dandelions after a spring rain.

He blamed me, hated me. He drank himself into a stupor every night.

One night, he was totally wasted and started moaning Tiffany's name while on top of me.